Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch?All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference?Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works.Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions.Don’t worry about missing out.You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”Matthew 6:27-34 MSG
So, I got up yesterday and I did my devotional. I really like the one I’m doing, and I’m not going to even lie – it had been a while since I had done it. Sunday kicked my butt back into gear and I really took time to stop and focus and pray, more than just a passing, “Morning God! Gotta get my day going!” The message was on “blessings” that God gives us – humility from losing a job, self control from a low bank account, etc.
So I prayed to God yesterday and I basically said, “I’m not going to worry about job stuff anymore. I know it will work out. I’m not going to stress out about it – I know you are our supplier.”
Then my heart was at peace and I went about my day.
I worked for the morning and came home. Lucy did her school work (she’s in summer school at Kirkley Academy) and then Wes suggested we go to the creek.
The water was cold and felt wonderful.
We had a nice time and even attempted to help pull a guy out of a stuck spot – but… he was way too stuck. You could barely see his tires. We leave, come home and I’m getting the kids all washed and clean and Wes goes to the mailbox.
A few of the things we ordered were in the mail, a little plug for a toy that I was given, some other stuff Wes had ordered for his bike/car/something. And then a bright yellow envelope from our mortgage company.
I opened it with a sunken heart thinking, “great, what do they want?” Did our online payment not go through, what is it now? You’re always kicked when you’re down right?
And it was a check. It was a cushion for when my job ends. It was an overpayment that we had made to escrow that they were crediting back to us.
I mean, God’s timing is so amazing!
It made my day, remembering that God fully shows his power when we are obedient. Don’t hold back. Jump in and follow him and He will make it great.
But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay. (Psalm 40:17 NIV)
Sunday was a great day in church. I don’t mean a good one, like the others, I mean a great one. Seriously great. The message was that we sell ourselves short, as saved by the blood Christians, when we live a life of, “well, I can’t be perfect, I’m going to sin eventually so I might as well settle in it.”
We forget that Jesus that walked on water, Jesus that healed the sick, Jesus that raised himself from the dead, lives in us. We have a new heart, a new life. Our flesh still looks the same, but we are new! And with that comes the same power that Jesus had.
We are not our old sinful selves anymore. We don’t have to live in bondage to sins we used to be bound to. Jesus has the power to free us from those. If only we accept it and apply it in our lives. We are saints, by the blood of Jesus.
That message stirred in many hearts and our alters (both campuses) were full of people who wanted their zeal back, who wanted healing, who wanted inspiration. And I know that they got it, because I did.
This job situation has had me messed up. I’m trapped, and ready to move forward, but I can’t. And I’ve lost momentum. Sunday morning I got it back.
For all of you who came down, keep pushing toward him and his love. He is there and you will find it if you seek.
At one of our most recent Eve nights, I spoke about how God pursues us and guves us little delights in our searches for Him.
Monday at the zoo Wes got to see the Tigers fight. They were growling and it was eye opening. Wes said if you’d heard that sound in the wild you would’ve cleaned out your intestines, and he wasn’t lying a bit. To hear a cat that big make sounds like that was straight terrifying. I immediately thought, “God gave that to Wes for his birthday!”
Then I selfishly thought, “what is God going to give me?”
Our Tuesday went about as we’d planned. Packed up and moved to a new camp. Got set up, had some bay time, I got sunburned (as always) even after applying layers of SPF.
On our way back to our campsite Wes stopped on the bridge because he thought he saw something move in the water. He did.
Real live, in the wild, river otters. And a few of them at that. I (thank God!!) had my SLR camera with my zoom lense.
I got one in a cute little marshy pose.
Why is this so cool?
Otters are my favorite animal. Hands down. They are the cutest of all critters and the fact they hold hands and use tools only make them cooler.
And God knew that. And he sent them to me. And I was selfish in thinking He’d give me a gift, and God let me know quickly that he delights in blessing his children with gifts.
Especially when we least expect it. I stood on the bridge and watched the 3-4 otters (still unsure just how many there were) for several minutes welled with tears because of how much my God loves me and how much I don’t deserve it. I pray that you see the gifts He’s showing you.
Be on the lookout for them. If you search, He will send.
Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken. (Psalms 55:22 HCSB)
I have had a heavy heart for quite some time. It’s been a few things actually. A few things that have held me back and taken my focus off of God. And, it’s nothing I can openly blog about either. I am ashamed that I let these things affect me the way that they did.
I thought I was more mature than I was. But satan is good at what he does and he sucked me down.
Yesterday, both of my situations had a shift and one made me breathe a sigh of relief while the other gave me knots. Situation one relieved itself. It is no more and peace is in my heart.
As I have said, so many times before… I am a planner… And not knowing the plan for my future is so hard for me.
Situation 2 still lingers and I am flat out tired of stressing out about it. I’m letting it eat away at me and I want to stop stressing and expelling my energy on worrying about it. I want it to be resolved too, but I’m not expecting that too much later in the summer.
Our vacation is coming up soon, and I’ll be so glad to be somewhere else and not having to think about a lot of things. Then I’ll come back and be right back in my boat.
So what do I do? What do you do when you get caught up. You get a situation that eats at you and you can’t seem to stop thinking about it ever?
You take captive those thoughts. You make your mind do what you want it to do.
I will promise you that I will try, and you do the same. I know I’m not alone in the whole “what’s gonna happen, how will this turn out, I can’t stop thinking about this” boat. You do it too, more than likely, and we need to stop worrying.
Cast those thoughts to Christ. He can and will carry these burdens and he can relieve us of this stress that slowly kills.
I promise to cast mine, you cast yours.