God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. Psalm 51:10 MSG
This is a pretty great verse. We all have things that we sorta wish we could erase. Things we’ve said, or things we’ve done. But we are also in contact with a God who can change that for us.
He can create a Genesis week in our lives.
So what happened in the Genesis week?
God took a lot of emptiness, and spoke every detail into existence. He didn’t miss anything. He didn’t leave out anything. He didn’t forget anything. He made it all, and it was real. It wasn’t going anywhere.
And he can do the same thing with us – He can take what we don’t think can be salvageable, and turn it into something real. He doesn’t forget us when ask to be made over. He doesn’t forget to add any detail to our lives. He turns us into amazing things, and gives us amazing stories. And only He can do that. He makes us new creations.
He can make us into new creatures, in a way that nothing else can. But it is all based on our ability to let him. He can’t change someone who doesn’t want it.
It is good news to know that he can create a fresh start. He can always take our chaos and make it a fresh start.
And I’ve decided that instead of thinking each day “Today might be the day!” I’m thinking.. September.
Will it he be here before September? Yes. My Dr. already said that she’d induce me on either August 3rd or 6th. So, really 2-3 weeks. So now, if he shows up sooner, then I’m a happy mama. And if he doesn’t then I’m not a crazy-insane-itchy-grumpy-gonna-punch-the-next-person-who-asks-me-what-my-due-date-is lady.
Really. I went two places yesterday. Jr. Food Mart to get milk. Conversation with the cashier.
Jr. Food Cashier: Woah, when are you due?
Me: Ahh.. any day now.
JFC: I can tell. You look miserable.
Me: Yeah, its hot outside. I’m ready.
JFC: Well, it won’t be long!
Me: Yeah, I hope not.
Then I went to Kangaroo to get diesel. Was waiting in line when I had this interaction.
Guy: Woah, man, you gonna make it to the end of the day with that belly!?
Me: Ha! I really hope not.
Both of us: Awkward giggle.
Every where I go… “when are you due?” I’ve stopped saying August because… well.. when I say that the response I get is ALWAYS “You aren’t gonna make it to August.”
I don’t need to hear that. I need to hear: “Well.. you probably will hit your due date.” Because all of this “not gonna make it to august” talk has got me believing it. And July is starting to wind down.
And for all I know, it could be today.
But it also could be August 6th. Because of my “gestational diabetes”, which I still don’t think I have, my doctor won’t let me go past 40 weeks. And like I said, she said she’d induce me on August 6th (or 3rd, depending on my dilation and what-not.) As bad as I don’t want to be induced – I want this child out of me worse. I’ll do it. I swear. I’ll do it. So now, I’ll tell people, August 6th. Winding down.
But to keep me occupied.. I (stupidly) got on Etsy. And there is a lot of cute baby stuff on Etsy. Handmade stuff. I’d be helping stay at home moms like myself buying stuff on there. But – I can’t justify spending $25+ on an elf hat that he will wear once.
I want one of these so bad. So… Since I can crochet – I’ve decided to make my own. And up side- I already had yarn and all the stuff needed, so I’m saving money, and using time up. Instead of just sitting, I’m crocheting. And keeping my mind off of… impending nothing.
I’m doing cream and white (mostly because that’s the colors I had. Also – I had this teensy hat that no baby could wear because it was so dang tiny, that I added earflaps too, and now I’ll have two cute crocheted baby hats to take lil Judah’s picture in!
I think it turned out pretty cute!
Seriously, that’s a big egg.
Ok, I’m going to go for a walk. I hear walking is good for giant pregnant people. Guess I’m still hoping it’ll be this month.
Have a great Thursday!