Category Archives: Pregnancy

Devotional: Psalm 51 and Still Pregnant

God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. Psalm 51:10 MSG

This is a pretty great verse. We all have things that we sorta wish we could erase. Things we’ve said, or things we’ve done. But we are also in contact with a God who can change that for us.

He can create a Genesis week in our lives.

So what happened in the Genesis week?

God took a lot of emptiness, and spoke every detail into existence. He didn’t miss anything. He didn’t leave out anything. He didn’t forget anything. He made it all, and it was real. It wasn’t going anywhere.

And he can do the same thing with us – He can take what we don’t think can be salvageable, and turn it into something real. He doesn’t forget us when ask to be made over. He doesn’t forget to add any detail to our lives. He turns us into amazing things, and gives us amazing stories. And only He can do that. He makes us new creations.

He can make us into new creatures, in a way that nothing else can. But it is all based on our ability to let him. He can’t change someone who doesn’t want it.

It is good news to know that he can create a fresh start. He can always take our chaos and make it a fresh start.

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Life Blog

Still Pregnant.

And I’ve decided that instead of thinking each day “Today might be the day!” I’m thinking.. September.

Will it he be here before September? Yes. My Dr. already said that she’d induce me on either August 3rd or 6th. So, really 2-3 weeks. So now, if he shows up sooner, then I’m a happy mama. And if he doesn’t then I’m not a crazy-insane-itchy-grumpy-gonna-punch-the-next-person-who-asks-me-what-my-due-date-is lady.

Really. I went two places yesterday. Jr. Food Mart to get milk. Conversation with the cashier.

Jr. Food Cashier: Woah, when are you due?
Me: Ahh.. any day now.
JFC: I can tell. You look miserable.
Me: Yeah, its hot outside. I’m ready.
JFC: Well, it won’t be long!
Me: Yeah, I hope not.

Then I went to Kangaroo to get diesel. Was waiting in line when I had this interaction.

Guy: Woah, man, you gonna make it to the end of the day with that belly!?
Me: Ha! I really hope not.
Both of us: Awkward giggle.

Every where I go… “when are you due?” I’ve stopped saying August because… well.. when I say that the response I get is ALWAYS “You aren’t gonna make it to August.”

I don’t need to hear that. I need to hear: “Well.. you probably will hit your due date.” Because all of this “not gonna make it to august” talk has got me believing it. And July is starting to wind down.

And for all I know, it could be today.

But it also could be August 6th. Because of my “gestational diabetes”, which I still don’t think I have, my doctor won’t let me go past 40 weeks. And like I said, she said she’d induce me on August 6th (or 3rd, depending on my dilation and what-not.) As bad as I don’t want to be induced – I want this child out of me worse. I’ll do it. I swear. I’ll do it. So now, I’ll tell people, August 6th. Winding down.

But to keep me occupied.. I (stupidly) got on Etsy. And there is a lot of cute baby stuff on Etsy. Handmade stuff. I’d be helping stay at home moms like myself buying stuff on there. But – I can’t justify spending $25+ on an elf hat that he will wear once.

Elf-hat? you say? It’s basically a prop used for newborn photography.
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I want one of these so bad. So… Since I can crochet – I’ve decided to make my own. And up side- I already had yarn and all the stuff needed, so I’m saving money, and using time up. Instead of just sitting, I’m crocheting. And keeping my mind off of… impending nothing.

Here’s what I’ve got so far:
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I’m doing cream and white (mostly because that’s the colors I had. Also – I had this teensy hat that no baby could wear because it was so dang tiny, that I added earflaps too, and now I’ll have two cute crocheted baby hats to take lil Judah’s picture in!

Here it is, with me trying to figure out how to add the flaps…
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And finished 🙂
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I think it turned out pretty cute!

And we still have egg laying chickens. And one of our chickens lays HUGE eggs.
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Seriously, that’s a big egg.

Ok, I’m going to go for a walk. I hear walking is good for giant pregnant people. Guess I’m still hoping it’ll be this month.

Have a great Thursday!

Devotional: Matthew 5 and 36w3d

Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand-shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.Matthew 5:16 MSG

God puts us in places where we can grow and be used by Him, for his Glory. He doesn’t save us and expect us to just sit around and do nothing. I’m not saying that works get us anywhere closer to heaven than just faith. Faith alone is all it takes, but when you realize what all God has done for you – you’ll want to do stuff for him in return.

One thing I learned at a conference I went to a year back… if you are ahead of someone – you can lead them. Doesn’t matter if you are 25 steps ahead, or 2. You are ahead. You have some wisdom to impart. I see a lot of people who are scared to take a roll on for Christ, because they are scared they will say something wrong, or aren’t worthy to be in a place of leadership.

There are times when people shouldn’t take on certain roles. You wouldn’t want someone who has been saved for 3 days to start pastoring a church, for example. But is it okay for that same guy to tell everyone and anyone he sees what Christ has done for him? YES!

If you see someone who is going through something you have been through, or are even going through currently, help them. If you have been there, you have experience. Maybe only 3 more steps-worth of experience than them, but that’s three steps that they can learn about, from you.

We are given a gift from God. We are lights. We need to shine, for His glory, and to help others. Don’t be scared to help other people. You are worthy. He calls you his Child and that makes you worthy.

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Life Blog

Short Devotional this AM. Not much to add to that verse really…

I had a dr. appointment yesterday. I’m a weekly pregnant visitor now. I’m dilated to 1cm (she actually said, “A good 1 cm”) so possibly a little more than that, and about 50% thinned out. Last week I wasn’t 1cm and I was about 20-30% thinned. So, I’ve made progress in a week. She said she thinks I’ll be pregnant next week. And then she tagged, “But.. I don’t know.. I never really know.” Also – Judah is DEF head down. So.. he’s getting ready.

So.. There ya are. Any day now. Official.

She also said that because of my little bit of sugar issues, she definitely wouldn’t let me pass the 40 week mark (which is August 11). And she said that she would actually induce me around 39 weeks (August 3rd or 6th) if I wanted to make sure that I had kiddo at the hospital, especially since my first labor wasn’t a real long one. (4 1/2 hours… remember?) But she said all of that would be contingent on me making it to 39 weeks.

I don’t think that she thinks I’ll make it that far.

Heck.. I dont’ think I’ll make it that far.

I had Lucy at 36 weeks and 3 days.

Today I am 36 weeks and 3 days.

If I don’t have him today, this will be the longest I have ever been pregnant. New territory for me. Grumpy territory for me. I’m ready. I’m so ready. So SO ready.

Not sure if Lucy is. It’s hard to know if she understands (like, really understands) that her only child world is going to come to a crashing halt soon.

Look how sweet. Wes took this yesterday.
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She’s such a sweet girl. I hope that she doesn’t get too jealous. I know she’ll have moments, but I think overall that she will be a loving big sister. She loves everyone. She’s never been one to bite or hit, she’s always petted and kissed. I’m hoping that transfers to the little guy who steals Mamma away so much too. I think she’s going to be a big helper, or at least I hope so.

I want her to know that she will always be my princess. Nothing will change that, ever.

And I don’t know if I’m actually already taking a step backward, or if she is just starting to push toward Wes more now, but she is. She’s cries when he walks out the door, she wants to lay with him on the couch, she wants him to fix her milk and cereal. She doesn’t ask me to do but about 1/4 of the stuff she gets him to do. Maybe its because he does it quicker? Poor guy, can’t say no to her little voice… Anyway – I know its a good thing she is starting to cling to him a little more, because for the first few days/weeks I’ll be sorta busy (Ain’t that word loaded??).

She’s never preferred one of us to the other, which is good. I guess it’s all getting real now. He will be here within 3 weeks for sure, and that’s scary and exciting and… relieving for me.

Oh yeah, one more picture before I go.. Wes was outside working on his motorcycle, and he snapped this picture.
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While he was working on his, she was working on hers. How cute!! She loves her daddy so much.

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This picture makes me wanna cry.

Maybe its cause I’m pregnant… Ah.. or because it kinda reminds me of how my Heavenly Father wraps his arms around us and cares so deeply about what’s important to us. She was only interested in her coloring book. And that made Daddy care about her coloring book as well. Becoming a parent does something to you… It is wonderful.

I think, the closer I get to having this little guy, the less I am excited about just not being pregnant (but don’t get me wrong.. I’m SO excited to at least halfway get my body back) but I’m getting more and more excited about meeting this new little man. He’s going to be some kind of amazing. I know that already. And I’m excited about it.

Devotional: Proverbs 15 and Almost Labor

Kind words heal and help; cutting words wound and maim. Proverbs 15:4

We have a lot of things in this life that are completely out of our control. We can’t control other people, we can’t control the weather, we can’t control our jobs.

We can, however, control our words. Yep – you read that right. You can control what you say. If it comes out of your mouth, then it can be controlled.

You can make your words helpful or hurtful. I love how this verse puts it – if you are a person who builds others up – your words are healing and helping.

But if your words are not – they cut and maim. And just for the sake of being able to – I looked up the true definition to ‘maim’. It means to wound or injure someone so that part of the body is permanently damaged.

Has someone ever said something to you that you remembered, forever? It hurt you that much?

Not a great example, but when I was pregnant with Lucy I had someone look at me in shorts and say, “Oh sweetie, your legs are SO swollen!”

My legs were not swollen. Not at all. That stuck with me. I’ll never forget that. Now, it wasn’t meant to be hurtful, and I know that.

Sometimes, people do mean to hurt others with their words. And those are the kind of words that can mangle someone else’s heart and damage it forever.

Today’s verse was simple.. just watch what you say. Don’t say mean things – because you never know how it will hurt someone.

That’s quite.. elementary, but since it still happens with adults, I guess it needed to be said!

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Life Blog

So we had a good couple of days. Good rain. Finally got our yard mowed 🙂 It finally needed it. We went from what – no rain for months – to literally – raining every day.

The other night Lucy had just had her bath but wasn’t sleepy – so I got out one of her birthday toys and we played a little.

PAINT WITH WATER!! She loved it! and she was sooo cute painting.
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So serious 🙂
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She did good.

And then yesterday…

Ahh.. Thursday…

I woke up feeling.. real blah. I didn’t sleep good the night before.. I was just.. awake. Couldn’t fall asleep. And so I was sorta running on E anyways. We had some errands to run in Hattiesburg so we headed off.

We went to Kohl’s and I got the ABSOLUTE cutest little outfits for my kiddos 😀 😀 😀
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Big Sister, Little Brother. HOW CUTE??? She’s def gonna wear that to the hospital 🙂

I’m excited about those.

Then we went to Target, then to Best Buy, then to eat, then pick up the church mower, then home.

Still all the while, not feeling wonderful, but not awful either.

So then when we got home, and we laid Lucy down for a nap she didn’t take, and I started working on getting our internet working (our Modem went out).

I couldn’t get it to work, and then I had a meltdown.

My butt was hurting (because it always does… not really my butt, but my pelvic bone). I couldn’t get that stupid modem and router to work together, and I was just tired and feeling bad. So I sat, had a little cry about being pregnant and then I was fine. Wes left for bootcamp – and Lucy was starting to act… really nice, so I rocked her. I fell asleep in the chair with her – woke up to thunder and nausea.

So I put her down, took a shower, and got ready. Feeling like I did, there was no way I was gonna cook. But still didn’t feel good.

So then I had to wake up the monster, and take her to town. She isn’t very fun to be around when she first wakes up.

When we got there, I started feeling worse. And by feeling worse, I mean, I was crampy and having contractions. Like Braxton Hicks, but worse. And more frequent. I don’t normally have Braxton hicks sitting down, but I was. We ate and came home. Still having them.

I probably had 20+ contractions in 2 hours. I was having them like 3-4 minutes apart.

But for me, I didn’t have any contractions with Lucy until I was IN labor. I didn’t have any contractions until my water broke. So having them before hand is… weird. I called my hospital, and the nurse told me to drink some water and not to worry about them.

If I had told her that I had delivered a baby at 36 weeks before and I am 1 day away from being 36 weeks, she might would have made me come in. Glad she didn’t. After 9pm, they all stopped. I started feeling better. And didn’t have another one again.

So.. that was my scary “Am I in labor!?” moment.

Today I feel fine. Just.. looking at my house… and I gotta get it clean. So.. I’ll probably be a bad parent today and let lucy watch TV so I can get some house work done. It’s probably not that bad.. but.. with me being 9 months pregnant (tomorrow!) I guess stuff like that is getting on my nerves a little more. and Finally – a comparison picture.

This was the last picture I took when I was pregnant with Lucy. I was one day away from being 36 Weeks. So, as that I am now currently one day away from being 36 weeks – this is the exact same gestation. Lucy I’m in pink, Today I’m in black. Look a the difference!

DEFINITELY bigger and lower than with Lucy.
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So.. there is that. I’ve made it to here. Lets see how much longer I will go!

Have a great weekend!

Devotional: Matthew 5 and MawMaw’s Shower

“You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.” Matthew 5:4 MSG

I’ve used this recently in church. It’s a good verse. A real good verse.

We, as humans, sometimes have to endure things we don’t want to endure. Loss of loved ones, hurt by friends, life just not going as planned. We definitely have ups and downs. And generally we remember the downs more. They seem to stick out in our minds more than the ups do. They are remembered more vividly and clearly and flat out.. for lack of a better way of putting it. That sucks.

Most of you know my “story”. My life story. I’ve said it so many times and even wrote a book about it, that it even feels like it means less now. If you don’t – here is a very brief overview.

I was raised by my single mother until I was 11. She passed away with breast cancer. She was my “most dear to you”. My Aunt Martha (my mom’s sister) adopted me when I was 12. She became my “most dear to you”… Every teenage girl needs a Mamma. And she passed away with ovarian cancer 4 years ago.

I’ve lost two of my “most dear to you”s.

Man – I had no idea I could condense that down to that little! I’m doing good… (Read my (ahem…25 chapter book) and you’ll see how impressive that really is.

Was it easy dealing with that first loss of my mother? No way. I cried for months. Literally, she died in October, and I would cry to sleep some nights… even after I was adopted (almost a year later).

But, thank God, I had a family who raised me to trust that God ultimately is my “most dear to you”. He saved me. I started living for Him right after her passing.

And so when it all happened again (I didn’t even mention losing my grandma and grandpa who helped raise me as a child), I knew I could depend on Him to get me through it.

When you feel like you have nothing else left in you, when everything is falling down and nothing makes sense or why you don’t deserve the way you’ve been treated… When your heart is so completely without strength that you feel like you can’t even breathe…

That is when the God of the universe, the Creator, Healer, Alpha and Omega, the Lion and the Lamb, The Source of our life, that’s when He embraces you. And He helps you make it to the next day. Sometimes, he helps you make it to the next hour.

The thing is – you have to let Him. He wants to. And believe me – he is good at it… but he will not invade you. He is quite the gentleman. Allow him to help you in your time of losing what is most dear to you.

He’s helped me cope by… writing. I journal a lot. I blog a lot. I wrote a stinkin book about it all. And in a way – I feel like a lot of that pain, while I had to experience it once more when I was writing, kind of got put on paper and now it isn’t being carried around in my heart as much. That’s how I can write this morning’s post without crying.

I know God is for me. Regardless the schemes that the Devil has thrown into my life, God is for me. And not only is he just for me and my overall good, He’s also there for me day to day. For the little events that take place in my life. And the big events as well.

Let him help you with your struggles. He will do a wonderful job.

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Life Blog

Sorry that was sorta a Debbie Downer this am. Ultimately its a happy blog, but it did get a little thick in there once or twice huh? 🙂

Anyway – I had a good Tuesday. Took Hunny (my chihuahua) to get her nails clipped. It had been…. too long. That’s all I’m gonna say. Then I gave her a bath because she smelled kinda like garbage juice and death. Not an aroma I want sitting on my couch.

Then I had errands in town, then I went to BCH and almost bought some broken stuff… luckily I noticed before I paid for it and didn’t. Whew. Then we ate lunch.

I put together Judah’s baby crib. Washed his sheets and comforter, and got his lil bed ready. 🙂 It’s getting cloooossssseeeerrr!

Y’all pray for me. Every night before I go to bed I google “Pre Labor Symptoms”. Yes. I’m ready. I’m only 35 weeks, and I know he needs to make it to like 37… at least.. But I guess since I’ve never been pregnant past 36 weeks and 3 days I just won’t know what to expect if I stay pregnant longer than that.

Ultimately, I don’t need him to come today. I got stuff I need to do today. (Watch it all happen today when I don’t need him to come…)

We have a meeting at a bank this AM to get some money to build Wesley/and my (haha) shop. I’ll be quite happy when this thing is built, because then I get all my porches back. They are all littered with tools right now.

So we’ve got that to do, then I gotta move some stuff around in kiddo’s room. (Nothing heavy, y’all settle down). Mostly dragging stuff. And then I have to sort through stuff from Judah’s and MawMaw’s shower! MawMaw’s work threw her a grandma shower – and got Judah some SUPER cute stuff.

To the ladies who work with MawMaw 🙂 : Thank you SO much for the gifts! They are all so stinking adorable!! I appreciate every little outfit and every minute spent on these absolutely great gifts. You all are so fantastic. I am always beside myself when we are blessed so richly with gifts for a person who.. isn’t even here yet! Lucy and Judah both are so beyond blessed already. Thank you so much for your generosity. Y’all are great. And… expect a visit from Lucy and Judah once he gets here 🙂 and I figure out how to deal with two at one time!

I’m real excited about sifting through all the cute monkey gear. Little boy stuff is fun to shop for too.. not AS much fun as a little girl, but still.. cute stuff with monkeys and giraffes and lions and doggies.. I’m excited.

After today.. I don’t really have that much going on. Surprise Surprise. Just… waiting on little man. And when I say waiting.. I mean.. sittin’ on G waitin on O. My bags are packed, Jeep has gas and I even bought a gallon of water to keep in the Jeep.. JUST in case. I did have quite the rapid delivery, and if push came to shove and I did have to have him in the car, I’d need that. It’s not taking up that much room and would be… quite handy if I needed it.

Ok, Duty calls.. My house is kinda of a disaster right now, and our meeting is in an hour and a half so I need to get some stuff done…

I hope your Hump day is like the back side of the hump… (the part you slide down… instead of being the front side.. the going up side? Too much? Yeah, too much. Just.. have a good day.. )

Devotional: Hebrews 10 and This week’s catchup

Let’s keep a firm grip on the promises that keep us going. He always keeps his word. Hebrews 10:23 MSG

Today will be a good blog. We are going to talk about His promises so that we can keep a firm grip on them! The devotional part will be short.. But SWEET.

So what are some promises from God to us?

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Matthew 11:28-29

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Isaiah 40:29-31

He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint.

Philippians 4:19

And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.

Romans 8:37-39

No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Proverbs 1:33

But all who listen to me will live in peace,
untroubled by fear of harm.”

John 14:27

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.

 

Romans 10:9

If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

 

I honestly don’t know if there is anything else I need to say. Pretty sure God says it all right there.

 

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Life Blog

So.. let’s play catch up huh?

Monday I went to see an old friend. Lucy tagged along. Lookin all stylish.
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I miraculously (yes, this was 100% God) found a thing I’ve been needing. Ok, let me explain. Lucy has this little giraffe. It’s made by Cloud B, called “Gentle Giraffe”. Target sells them. They are 22.99. It’s basically a stuffed animal with a sound machine stuck in the back of it. Except, instead of it playing for 10 minutes and turning off, it will play for either 23 or 45. By far the longest playing sound machine for a baby on the market (that I have found.. and boy did I search!)

Well, I bought Lucy the Giraffe “to-go” version (he’s about 8-10″ tall). The Big one (like 2 feet long) was like $35. I paid 23 bucks for it. Well, I was shopping at dirt cheap (back when it was still in Collins.. the glorious days…) and I found the big version of the giraffe. He was had been marked $12 somehow, and was 60% off. I then found the “Sleep Sheep” which is the giraffes.. cousin? Anyway, made by same company, same size sound box, different animal. Well, the big giraffe didn’t have the sound box, but the little sheep did! So I bought both. Got home and realized that the sound box for the sheep was.. a little kinky and it ended up not working 100% of the time. So.. Bust. Now I’ve got a giant giraffe, a sheep and no sound box.

So the other day I was looking online for a sleep sheep – for Judah. I know now how much that giraffe helps lucy sleep, so I figure, if $23 can get me more sleep.. then by golly, Imma pay $23. I was on ebay, thinking maybe someone was selling one used. Ya’ll know how much I like a deal! And by all means.. what did I find? A replacement sound box. That works. For $5. So I quickly googled the entire world wide web and found out that this was the only one for sale online.. anywhere. So I snatched that booger up.

Got it in the mail Tuesday, works like a stinkin charm! I had kept the sheep – so now, I got my Sleep Sheep for Judah!
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Boom. That was a lot of talking to say I got a deal. But, you had to know the back story for this to be as amazing as it is.

And our chickens are laying eggs official style now. Monday we got 5 eggs, Tuesday 6 (I broke one), Wednesday 6 (Luc broke one) and when I went to close the coop last night, found another! (So technically Wed was 7 -1). I also found out by my chicken forum, that my blue egg layers (Easter Eggers) I thought only laid 3-5 eggs a week. But on there, asking around, most peoples Easter Eggers lay like 6 a week! And my Barred Rock hens, also can lay about 6 a week (I thought they were 4-5 per week). So now, we have 4 daily layers, and 6 hens that can be 6-7 eggs a week layers. And one, my pretty chicken, is still like a 3-4 a week gal. So we could possibly be getting like 10 eggs a day. Which is.. WAY more than I expected.

I had blue scrambled eggs this morning. 🙂
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And my “rain boots” are officially my “coop boots” now. Do you see the little feather stuck to the back one? On the bottom of the boot? There are chicken feathers all in my yard.
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And in case you were wondering.. I’m still pregnant. I feel good today though. Past couple of days I haven’t. But today I feel good. Also.. I felt good enough to take a picture for you all. The look on my face is not relative to how I feel. 😉
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And because people always ask me to – I figured I’d show you a picture of my back. People get a kick out of how not pregnant I look, then when I turn around, how VERY pregnant I am. I’m carrying all out front if you hadn’t guessed.
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And a good ole comparison picture. On the left, me at 36 weeks with Lucy. On the right, Today, 34 Weeks 5 days.
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I think I’ve caught up to myself.

Ok.. Gonna take advantage of this good feeling (maybe I’m nesting?) and get some housework done!

Hope you had a great day yesterday!